I will say this though...this is not a typical first. Nor is any strong religious belief required -- I remember hitting a girl who was a total atheist with a mountain of 6th chakra energy. She kept looking at me with her jaw agape saying, "This isn't possible. I can't be feeling this," over and over. She eventually concluded that I must have had some sort of battery operated implant in my forehead. The point is, she had no supporting belief system and still felt it.
So here goes: my first Tantric experience --- and you may find it explains a bit about why it comes naturally to me.
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Not as pretty nor as angelic. Also, she tended to get off on wearing outfits she'd wear at a party = no clear heels |
Carli and I were swept up with each other and I ended up spending most of the night talking to her (and trying to avoid other friends trying to high five me because, quite honestly, that's the opposite of helping!) Now unfortunately, she was living in a completely different city so when that sleepless damn came, we made plans for her to come visit me.
When Carli did arrive, my housemate was sooooo not pleased with her showing up as she could see I was obviously smitten. So, after some deft cock-blocking-avoidance, I managed to Carli up to my room to show her...I have no idea what excuse I invented ...as my real intention was to show her my bed as so that's all I can remember.
I moved my face closer to Carli's so our noses were an inch or so apart and the tingling got much more intense. As I got close to her, it was as if a Hitachi Magic Wand was buzzing on my forehead on high. We instinctively lined our faces up and as we gazed into each other's eyes -SNAP! Our throats now plugged into each other. It was as solid a connection as sticking a plug into a socket -- it just slid in and connected together.
Now we were attached at our foreheads and our throats. She was still sitting on the bed and I was hovering over her, kinda stuck connected to her so I moved closer -- and SNAP! The next connection was our hearts. Carli and I slid back into a more horizontal position as I got on top of her -- and SNAP, SNAP! My stomach and pelvis plugged into her as well.
I was now laying on top of her, gazing into her eyes while fully connected to her at the forehead, throat, heart, stomach and pelvis. We were connected and had spontaneously plugged out 2nd to 6th chakras together. I want to say again that this happened without any intention whatsoever and actually completely interrupted our conversation. And now we were energetically intertwined. I had never before in my life experienced anything like this. I could feel her heart beating and the blood flowing through her veins. In truth, I could feel everything about her body more clearly than I can feel my body as type this.
So Carli was sitting on my bed and I was showing her 'something' when quite suddenly and unexpectedly, my forehead latched onto hers and snapped into place. I don't mean literally, but at the time, I had little experience with it and didn't really know what was going on. But there was an immense amount of tingling coming from the middle of my forehead and this tingling lunged out and connected with the centre of Carli's forehead. I literally dropped the object I was showing her and stopped speaking mid-sentence as an energetic part of me 'clicked' into her. It was like a solid and palpable click when we connected.
The feeling engulfing my body was pure ecstasy. A comfortable, effortless bliss. In all honesty, it was a communion with my beloved -- a coming home -- and I was oddly coherent and not screaming and convulsing as often happens with me...this was just...peace.
I gazed lovingly into her eyes...and I do mean lovingly: my heart was so open towards her. I gazed
I am you and you are me I see |
At some point I noticed something odd: Carli, the blonde-haired, blue-eyed beauty that I knew, now had long black hair and an Asian face. And odder still, I totally recognized that face. Her face was so familiar to me that I'd failed to noticed that she was Asian for a considerable time. But as I gazed at her, I knew that knew her...more strongly than the sense I initally had of knowing Carli when I met her at the wedding. This Asian girl I knew. As in, she was my sacred lover and we definitely had a strong past together. The energy swirled around and flowed in and out of each other, merging so thoroughly that describing us as two beings seems wrong.
When we finally 'came out of it' and could speak again, Carli looked at me in wonder and said, " We've done that before!" I could only agree -- despite the fact that this was the 2nd time we had met. Of course, I saw Carli now as a blonde and everything had pretty much returned to normal -- though the only words spoken thus far were, "We've done that before," and my, "mmmmhmm." Then Carli said something to me that served to confirm the experience, "I saw you but...you were Asian." My jaw dropped. Yes, what had happened was not all in my head: she had seen it too.
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