Note from a Pain Slut

Many people react with disgust or confusion when they hear hear explain a girls personal love  for masochism and pain.  I can understand how it might be a hard concept, especially for vanilla types to comprehend. And I found this note from a pain slut eloquently explains what she finds so appealing about it:

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In pain, I find freedom. It wipes away all of the drivel, the white noise, the doubt, the fear, and loneliness ..there is only the rawness of the current moment. It forces me to evaluate and appreciate what is happening, without the burden of over analyzing its worth. It burns away my insecurities, and my mind is open for something deeper and more substantial.  I am able to cast off the prison that has enveloped my awareness. I am one with my presence, a melding of text and body. 

In this way I am able to heal, to accept, to love. Pain speaks to me on a level deeper than anything else because it is pure. There is only me, and the response of my nervous system. It's beautiful and terrifying in its simplicity. I welcome it, even crave it some days, because in pain there is truth. In truth there is knowledge. In knowledge there is power. Power over my own pain is the highest form of self control I can obtain. I look forward to the challenge of its mastery, and the self discovery I will achieve during the journey. 

Pain is the most intimate lover and mentor I could seek, and in its teachings I have developed into the person I am today. Pain is not proud, pain does not boast, pain does not lie. 

It simply is. 

And I am home.